This Caller {wishes she} Is Not Available!

I had to answer the phone the other day. Twice!

Then, this week I had to call even more people back… So many phone calls!

I DO NOT like getting or making phone calls. If you’ve ever tried to call me, it probably went to voicemail because. Because!

I don’t totally understand it. I spent hours on the phone in middle and high school. I still do that and enjoy it when it’s friends/family who I talk to- I guess the stakes are higher when I have to be an adult. I’m afraid of sounding dumb or not making sense. But in the olden days of the 90’s, we didn’t have caller ID, and I don’t know how I didn’t have the same sheer anxiety when the phone rang like I do now. I even RAN to blindly answer it! I know I’m not alone in this!

Anyway, Mom’s been getting some home healthcare lately, of which I am EXTREMELY thankful for. However, each practitioner calls- CALLS!- the evening before to schedule. I usually miss the call, so then I have to call them back. One of them texts me, which is THE BEST. But there are so many calls and missed calls and voicemails and call backs. Not to mention all the people in and out of the house- but that’s for another post! I do it because I am thankful for the care, but wow, is it challenging for introverted me.

I’ve joked before about how helping Mom has added to the number of calls I have to make. That was BEFORE, and I had nooo idea! Now it’s daily and usually more than once a day.

Truthfully, I have some calls I need to make for ME that I have been avoiding. This isn’t helping. I know I’ll feel better when I do them, but I am spending lots and lots of time outside of my comfort zone lately and have to take breaks.

I guess this is good for me. Growth. Overcoming fears. I don’t like it though! And I don’t feel like I’m having much growth for it, either! I guess it’s an accomplishment that I DO call back. I should focus on that instead of constantly worrying and berating myself.

I have at least 2, maybe 3 calls I should/could make today. No, 4. Oi! Will I do it now? Maybe…

Maybe after a nap! You know, balance.